woosaaa wooosaaa

It's been wicked busy, can not believe it is May already. My days are usually filled with some sort of appointment. My halter was negative. My white cells are still low and I see a hematologist for that tomorrow. My red were also low with my last blood draw. Then they had to retest a low free thyroid level, also low. Found that one out yesterday, I will be seeing an endocrinologist for that one. My nutritionist had to cancel my appointment, so I see her next week. With all that said my biggest complaint is I think I have tennis elbow in bot elbows they kill me with nerve pain. It is very annoying.

I'm getting tanner, been 3 times now. Danny is sending me away for some relaxation which he insets I must be tan for. I love him to death and hope to God we survive this strained relationship. We have made progress with some connection. We have a long way to go. The hard part is focusing on getting better knowing I need to hurry up to find my husband. Some moments I am hopelessly upset by the shere thought of being withput him. The shity part is he says he thinks i need to be alone, live alone. I told him can not leave me just because he thinks that is what I need. I sure as hell don't think that and niether does my therapist. If he wants to go he will have to go for his own reasons. Not what he assume are mine. Craziness I know. This is my first week as a weekday tech. Yes, no more weekends. I have no doubt that this is the long needed brake my family has needed. We will have Saturdays and Sunday off like a normal family...and maybe I can get a life. As for recovery for this week I seemed to cry less and have good moments. I just keep looking forward knowing it is a slow process and try not to get frustrated when I feel like crap. Someday the good days will out way the bad.

On a much needed happy note. My twin is going to have a baby!!
SHhhhhh....it is still a secrate, so don't tell.