I think it's all becoming real. It has been a tough week. I know it sounds cold, but I feel this would be easier if he died. I just can't move forward right now. I don't know what to do.
posted by Mari at 11:23 AM
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
I think it's all becoming real. It has been a tough week. I know it sounds cold, but I feel this would be easier if he died. I just can't move forward right now. I don't know what to do.About Me
- Name: Mari
- Location: Michigan, United States
I live in MI with my husband and our two year old daughter. We have been living here for 3 years after moving from Plymouth MA. I consider myself down to earth easy going and a can be shy. I love running and danceing. I miss the beaches in MA and love hanging at the beach.
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8 Comments:
:( it is going to take lots of time and lots of processing. It is great that you have such support in place to help you through.
You CAN get through this, and you WILL.
You've got a wonderful little daughter to be proud of, and you SHOULD be very, very proud of yourself Mari.
Some children would give anything to have a Mother like you, and eevn though hubby is not there right now, at least your daughter is not a kid with no Father or one that hurts her, he might have gone off to find himself for a while, but at least your daughter has you, and that's something special to cherish, that bond between a wonderful child and a wonderful Mother figure.
You trained hard for that duathlon you did, you put a lot of effort in to be that successful, so you have the mental ability, strength and resilience to get through this and it's not the same thing, but there are parallels, and in the long term, you know what you have to do.
Be strong for yourself, so you can be strong for Natasha, she's a little sweetie, who understands probably nothing about this, but whatever happens, you need to be her world, her happiness, her protection, inspiration, rolemodel, and that makes you a veruy, very important figure in her life, and for that, it's a tough responsibility, but a beautiful one, some Women for whatever reasons can never know, and you'll make this work, because you have to.
Your head has the answers to your questions, and you'll find the answers Mari. You have a lot of inner beauty, and a lot of human worth, and by heck nobody and certainly not me, will walk away from this.
You're not alone, you've got people who will help you get through this, and see you make great strides forward with or without hubby, so don't forget you'r eworth a million to yourself, and others and twice as much to your daughhter who is someone you should be proud of, because you've been a brilliant Mother ot her all these years, absolutely fantastic, and with a sparkling Heart like yours, you can't fail to be a human success, so be strong, chin up, walk tall, and show your daughter you aren't beaten, you're not a quitter, and you're a strong empowering female rolemodel, and a great person to look up to, and both of you will be a.o.k.
You just need to believe in that, and I know you can.
GOOD LUCK, and remember none of this is your fault, or your mistake, if hubby chooses to feel he's better off out of it, you can't make him want to return, but you can't make yourself feel worse, or blame yourself.
You need to be everything for your little girl now, and think about your state as well.
You've got plenty of people here for you, so don't you worry and no tears okay, and if you need anything at all, you mail me anytime, and I'll be around as much as possible.
Best wishes Mari, and never forget you are a wonderful person, admired and appeciated, and I can think of another person, who has two children, and little to no support, (I think you know who I mean), and if she can do this, you can too.
BIG HUGS, for a wonderful young woman, and a fabulous Mother figure. You have a wonderful daughter and that's partly down to you, so be proud of who you are. It's fantastic.
:-) :-).
Matt
Mari - my thoughts are with you. I am sorry you have to go through this. Things will get better.
Ummm... you are not alone for thinking that. I think it's a natural reaction to want to avoid the reality of the situation. Try to hang in there and know that after this passes, you will be happy again and life will be good.
Just stopped by to let you know I've been thinking about you. Let yourself feel and know there are many, many who are supporting you.
Sure I finally come outof hiding to post & blogger is acting up ..hope this gets to you!
That thought is TOTALLY normal! ( been there done that) as others say .. this is going to take time to get to where you both figure out how this is going to settle into place.. we're here for you regardless hon!
Hay Mari. I hope things have levelled out a bit more emotionally, and mentally.
Whatever is happening, you have all my best, and plenty of smiles :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-).
I know it's hard right now, and you have my fullest empathy, and I really hope things get better for you soon.
GOOD LUCK, no matter what, and thank you for not becoming someone who just removes their blog and goes into some social withdrawal, like some have before, as we do care, and we want to care, and I'm glad I have this opportunity, to do that, and to let you know from time to time, I'm thinking of you, and I'm here for you.
If you need anything, even a good old moan, please do e-mail me anytime, and in the mean time, best wishes again, HUGS, and don't forget that you mean a lot to everyone who posts here, and I hope you might find a small moment in your day, to be able to reflect, on what a valuable person you are to so many.
Take care, Mari and very, very best wishes for some much brighter tomorrows.
You are a truly wonderful person.
:-) :-) :-).
Matt
i've been checking back for updates... hope things are as "better " as they can be ... hang in there - we are all thinking of you.
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