A Day full of Fun....

Lori and Mike's wedding

Me and Danny

Later that night at Plymouth rock

If only the fun continued when the day was done.

You Guys are The Best

Thanks for all of you out there and your kind words. The hematologist is giving me 2 months before we re-test. If I am still low we do a bone marrow biopsy. The thyroid biopsy was negative and the doctor is going to keep an eye on it. My sisters wedding was very nice I can up load some pictures. Natasha just woke up, but I'll check back later.

Just When I Thought it Would all be OK

Life just sucks right now. I'm handling my head and the nutritionist stuff just fine. I don't have the energy to fight and doing everything I can to let go of my bad ways. I have been doing awesome with my meal plan. Some days are harder then others, but that comes with a busy life. The hard thing now is Danny. I have never seen him so incredibly sad. He is always tense and never happy. No laughing and no fun. He cracked and he can't deal with anything anymore. We found him a therapist and they had a consult today. It has to help him it just does, it has to get better then this. My life has never been so bad. I just want to come out of all this as a family. I can only hope.

As for me well... my white is still low and red borderline. All my tests to rule out auto immune disorders where negative. I fallow up with the hematologist tomorrow. Today I saw the endocrinologist. He found a 1" noddle in the right lobe of my thyroid. They biopsied it...7 sticks to the neck..yeah it feels gross, not pain pain but uncomfortable and now it's hard to swallow...so much for my meal plan, HA! just kidding. I find out something in about 3 days.

AND THE GRAND Finale of news....my sister is getting married Saturday. A Small beach wedding in Mass. She is over joyed with all her good news.
Remember the baby news??....it's babies news, YUP she is having twins.
They have a December 30th due date. She says she new it was 2 and that's why she wanted the early ultrasound. I'm very happy for her. Danny, Natasha and I fly out Friday morning for the wedding. It will be a difficult trip given the state of our family, just hope it all goes as smooth as possible.

Thank you all for checking in and caring about my well being. I don't often get on here or get to tell you. It means a ton to me and I think of you all often. I really really do.

woosaaa wooosaaa

It's been wicked busy, can not believe it is May already. My days are usually filled with some sort of appointment. My halter was negative. My white cells are still low and I see a hematologist for that tomorrow. My red were also low with my last blood draw. Then they had to retest a low free thyroid level, also low. Found that one out yesterday, I will be seeing an endocrinologist for that one. My nutritionist had to cancel my appointment, so I see her next week. With all that said my biggest complaint is I think I have tennis elbow in bot elbows they kill me with nerve pain. It is very annoying.

I'm getting tanner, been 3 times now. Danny is sending me away for some relaxation which he insets I must be tan for. I love him to death and hope to God we survive this strained relationship. We have made progress with some connection. We have a long way to go. The hard part is focusing on getting better knowing I need to hurry up to find my husband. Some moments I am hopelessly upset by the shere thought of being withput him. The shity part is he says he thinks i need to be alone, live alone. I told him can not leave me just because he thinks that is what I need. I sure as hell don't think that and niether does my therapist. If he wants to go he will have to go for his own reasons. Not what he assume are mine. Craziness I know. This is my first week as a weekday tech. Yes, no more weekends. I have no doubt that this is the long needed brake my family has needed. We will have Saturdays and Sunday off like a normal family...and maybe I can get a life. As for recovery for this week I seemed to cry less and have good moments. I just keep looking forward knowing it is a slow process and try not to get frustrated when I feel like crap. Someday the good days will out way the bad.

On a much needed happy note. My twin is going to have a baby!!
SHhhhhh....it is still a secrate, so don't tell.