The count down begins

I had a funny picture for you guys but my photo up load has issues. So, what is up? I am busy with work. It will be a crazy month on the job. I have some extra time this week. I am feeling the crunch for the race. My soon to be bike is in Mass. getting a much needed tune up. The bike is Dannys and it hasn't been ridden in over 5 years. The cycle shop is dipping it in a solution and cleaning all the gears. Danny tells me this makes it like new. How cool and all that for 42 dollars. Wednesday I meet up with a co worker to barrow a wet suit. Hope I wont need it, but just in case. I would hate to not be able to race if they don't let me in the cold water. If anyone knows how to find the water temperature of the Merrimack river in Lowell Mass. please let me know.

I have not been mentally on top of my game. I was thrown off with all that has been going on. Lori being here the wedding working and Danny's school. Lori stayed at my Aunts and had no car, so I didn't get the extra early workouts in I was looking forward to. The lack of workouts before the race is mentally taking a toll. I felt paralyzed not sure where to start. Well, that doesn't help much when you need to get your but moving. So, I decided to fake it get into it and then let my routine fall into place. I guess you could say I punished myself for not finding time to train. This is what I have been up to.

Wednesday-Return from trip up-north with Nikki and Lori
Thursday- Drive Lori to airport
Friday/punishment day...but it was fun-60 min. Cycle class in AM a 9.02 mile run in evening.
Saturday-work 16 hours
Sunday-run 4.5 then work 16 hours
Today I need to swim I already told Danny and he is going to kick me out of the house when he gets in from school. It is just one of those things I can't do with Natasha.

13 days till race day!!!!!!!

A wedding photo

My best friend Dawn sent me this. This is from her wedding last friday.

Me and sis

Nothing to say....

so here is some pictures of my sister and cousin teaching babycakes CHEERS! Lori went home yesterday at 4am.


Lori's helping me out with daily phone calls. Nothing new going on here.

Well hey...

Thanks everyone for all the awesome comments. Sorry if I left you hanging I know it's been a few days. Friday I had my funky ultrasound test and then had the wedding. I worked 16 hours today and yesterday so needless to say no time for bloggen. The ultrasound was good the pain they told me I would get was pretty much nothing. My test and my hormone blood work was all normal. Dr. says that there is no reason for my body not to ovulate or cycle. He said that since the blood work was normal that I maybe off just a little that is not normal for me and can through off your body. So, now I am on yet another birth control for two weeks and then another appointment from there. What happens next I guess depends on if the birth control does what he wants.
Then the wedding. OMG what fun. My friend got married near the ocean it was wicked pretty and all us friends hung out danced and drank till 1 am. Fun fun!
Then I went to work YIKES. Yup on 2 1/2 hours sleep and way to much rum. I acutely made it through the day just fine. I could not believe how awake I was. Today wasn't so bad either. I am off to pack my sister and Natasha are going up-north with me to grandma's cabin. It will be a blast, but last minute plan so I am off to pack.
Oh and my wonderful sister has volunteered to watch Natasha while I swim the lake. Thank goodness I have only gotten 2 swims in since July 4th. I haven't had time to stay in a funk and my sister is keeping me busy.
Enjoy the week I be back to take Lor to the airport the 27th.

Two steps back....

That is what I do everyday. I just kept getting madder at myself for my bad days. I have high hopes and big dreams. BUT that is all they are hopes. I wake up the next day and make the same mistake day after day. I only get 3 workouts done in about 3 weeks and hardly any weights just cardio. I eat lots of salty processed food. I eat when I am not hungry and I know this and do it anyway. Why? I can not get myself on track. I am feeling very ugly and pudgy and I am full of bad mental talk. Which makes me have another bad day. I know that 99% of my problem is in my head, it must be mental. My self talk sucks. I even cried last night when I looked at myself in the mirror. I spend my nights pretending I am fine but inside I feel sad. I am try to talk myself out of having a bad day, but so far it isn't working. I don't know if all this ramble makes sense. I should just delete it. Now I just want to cry again. What is up with my emotions?
OK I'm done

You will love it!

This site is awesome you have to check it out. I have been using it to find new places to run. It sure beats driving out the miles in the car. I just went for a great run long and slow. It was 1 hour 25 min. 8.6 miles. It got dark and the sidewalk disappeared and bats came out, yikes. I ended up in a construction zone opps. Well, I live in MI pretty hard to go for a run without construction popping up sooner or later. I like to work myself up to two 10 mile runs. I have had a couple weeks where I did three 7.5 mile runs, so I know it is doable. The only problem with running at night is now it is going on midnight and I'm not tired.

Oh almost left you hanging on the web site ha ha

http://www.mapmyrun.com/

bummer....

I just got an e-mail mail from 3Ddisciplines canceling the swim-runs for the rest of the season. They do the races at a loss and the rain cancellation put them at a big loss. This is really bad news since I was going to do next Tuesdays as training toward a triathlon sprint I am looking into doing. The sprint is August 13th out of Lowell Mass. Danny's parents have a bike of his that I could use. His dad is taking it for a tune up since it hasn't been touched in 4 years. I am afraid of the water temp, so I am trying on my friend from works encase I need one. She has some for jet ski and scuba diving I have no idea how different they are from the tri suit. I guess I see lets just hope one fits me. I think I might end up in a guys suit her husband is pretty small. I could never wear hers since she could easily be a size zero. I already talked to my mom about driving me to Lowell. It will be 1 and 1/2 hours from my mom's house on a Sunday morning. This is all exciting and scary. I am still without a bike and have not cycled in a while. All the classes are now to early for Natasha's morning. Dahm kid ha ha. She is feeling better now but gave her cold to her daddy. Don't worry about me I never get what they get.
Just 25 days till the race!

Still around...

I have been to busy to update my blog due to my pretzel addiction. I don't know what my problem is my workouts are far and few between and I eat to much. I eat to eat not because I am hungry. Anyway, just trying to get back into it. The fatigue lifted mid week, but man was it bad. I found I was more fatigued then when I was pregnant. Not sure why but I had a wired few weeks with the pills and all the fun hormones. Overall while taking them there was no difference, no sickness like doc said. This week will be hard since Natasha is sick. This means no gym. I can not take her for a run it's 100 degrees out there. I hope to get a swim in tonight, but have been bad at that. I did get a run in yesterday morning just a quick 4.5 miler before work. Friday night was my friends pre wedding cook out and I made her cake. It came out OK. It was a little tilted and the sides were far from smooth. Danny had the day off and we took Natasha to the zoo. It was fun, but I had a killer headache all day and boy was it a hot one. The wedding is Friday night and my sister will fly in Wednesday, woohoo. So, although I am trying to focus this week not sure I will be able to. I have that ultrasound Friday morning and a swim rum Tuesday the 25th. This one is 600 meter swim and 3 mile run. So, that is about it

Another year older....

It was long weekend, blahhh. I worked my 16 hour day Saturday and when I got home I watched a movie with Danny. We were going to go to a party but I am OLD and was not up for it. It was my 27th birthday Saturday and like the past 5 birthdays it sucked. It was even worse this year since I had to wok and my twin sister is in Mass. Well, I went to bed and decided to run 7.7 miles Sunday morning. My Sunday was bad I was tired all through work and I couldn't shake it. Must be because I turned 27, hmm. No, it really comes down to finishing up all the pills the doc had me on. Anyway have to find a secretary of the State today to renew my license. Other then that I have to get supplies for a bridal shower cake for my best friend and get my house clean. Not sure what Danny and Natasha do while I am at work but they leave me quite a bit of house work for Monday. Once I get that all done I can move on to the fun stuff. I need a bike fast. There is a race I want to do and it is August 13th, so I need to hit the road to see if I should sign up. I will be in Mass. for that one and might be riding Danny's bike that is already there, but for now I need something, anything. Lots to do this month, my next swim run is July 25th. It is going to be a hot week WOOhooo hope to get to Stoney Creek for a good open swim. OK off to get some coffee for my old tired self. Have an awesome day.

I am ______

How do you define yourself? Does it get you through a tough workout or stress filled day. When I started being consistent with eating healthy and getting in a workout I always had some mental sayings to help me. I always said if you workout and eat like an athlete maybe someday I will actually look like an athlete. Then I started with a couple fun runs and got the itch to do a marathon. Then it was if I eat like an athlete train like an athlete look like an athlete maybe just maybe I can perform like an athlete. Can a regular joe transform into an athlete? What do you think? I bet you define yourself differently today then you did when you picked up your fitness endeavors. Striving to be an athlete helps my mental game. When I am on a run and my pace starts to slow a good mental talk can make a world of difference. So next time you are trying to stay on top of the game give yourself some mental mojo. This will be different for all of us wither it be athlete, fitness freak, figure competitor, fitness guru, champion, body builder, or trainer. The mind is a powerful tool and I believe at one point or another it can be more important then your physical ability. I have been thinking a lot about this since Matt called me an athlete. I will never forget that it has had me smiling all week to know that he looks at me that way. I thought of most of this while out on a run yesterday. I hope it helps you push hard for another day. Words are powerful exercise your mind!

Well Hello

I got to run yesterday before work and did 7.2 miles. My longest run in a long time. I have no pain in the shins today woohoo. Think I will stick to running 2-3 times a week and see if I can go without kicking up the shin splints. I have not gone for a swim since my race. I need to get in the pool. The next race is a 600 meter July 25th. I have done 2 days now of the 3 birth controls a night and so far no sickness. The doctor said I will get sick with all the hormones since I will be taking 21 pills in a 7 day period. Anyway it is all good for now. I am just cleaning house at the moment. I already packed up my bottle returns, cleaned out the refrigerator and kitchen cabinets, dusted, vacuumed, and Lysoled(is that a word?) the kitchen and bathroom. When Natasha wakes up from her nap me and my friend are taking are kids to the pool to enjoy this 85 degrees of humidity. Then I have to get to the store for my sisters birthday present if I don't get on that it wont get sent in time. Well, off to clean out something elese while I am in clean mode. Have a great day.