The stress hit the fan for both me and Danny Friday night. It can be hard with him in school full time and he has lots of tests and studying. He is busy Monday-Friday which leaves me to keep up with all the house stuff and Natasha, plus I support us all by working my 32 hour weekends. Everything is good now I'm sure we will have our weeks when it just seem to much, but for now we are back on the same page.
The cook out went good. It was Natashas first time in the pool since last season when she couldn't even walk. She did awesome. She learned where the pool steps were. I didn't faze her when her face hit the water. She even dunked down and put her face in. Not on purpose but it didn't bother her. She never tried to step off the steps without us. Danny cooked on the grill for everyone and I think everyone had fun. We didn't get home till 9:30 Natasha was beat and I thought she would end up cranky today with her lack of sleep yesterday. Thankfully she slept in an extra hour and seems to be herself.
I have been doing good with my plan of eating good without a plan or diet. I got a 6 mile run in on Sunday and 60 minute cycle class Monday morning. My friend Dawn want to walk 10 miles twice a week, so I will be doing that with her. We just put the kids in the stroller and walk a path. I am stuck at 7 pull ups hoping I can do more. I did hit a best on the bench press last week at 85lbs for 6 reps.
I finley got to see some pictures of the new baby. My sister in law got home from the hospital Monday. He is big and looks pretty cute. I included a picture and don't know how to get it to the bottom so he is at the top of the post. I can't wait to meet him. When I go home I am staying at Sarah and Patrick's place so they can sleep through the night.
I have been keeping myself busy. It is my way of faking when I feel the blahh mood taking over. I just suck it up get out stay busy and then the day isn't so bad. My friend wanted me to help her at her house with some workouts. I did that Wednesday. It was hard with Natasha and her 6 month old. I didn't get to do any weights just showed her some stuff with what she had. I did get to jump on her treadmill for 2 miles. Then we headed out for a walk probably around 5 miles. She wants to do a walk 2 times a week and with the expected rain we headed out yesterday to avoid the Friday showers. This time we walked 10 miles in 3 hours, but no other workout for me :(. The kids handled it fairly well. My friend is getting ready for her wedding July 21st. Today I got to the gym for a 75 min strong class. It was awesome and I didn't realize the last time I went that this was a 75 min. one.
I am feeling a little stress. Not with anything in particular but that stress from always being response for something in some way. I always have Natasha all week and with Danny's test he comes home and puts on his headset goes to studying. We never go anywhere together and even if we need to run to the store for groceries I end up going with Natasha because he has to much to do. Part of me wants to be alone, walk out the door no kid to worry about go do my own thing. But, I am also lonely and yet never alone and wish I could hang out with Danny. Does this make any sense. I was supposed to go to grandma's near Danny's school today. He said he was going out for drinks after school when they were done with the 4 tests they have. I told him he should have his car pool buddy drive I'll go to grandma and we can ride home together. Well he said that sounded cool. Must not have been that cool last night I asked about Jon driving and it was Danny's turn and he never asked. So, yet again he gets to go out after school and I'm staying home. His plans did go through for grandma's he is having 15 people altogether for a cook out Monday. Since my work day is 16 hours I don't have anytime for anything else but worry about getting to work and back again the next day. I know it is odd I just want to be alone but at the same time I am lonely.
Anyway on a better note. I just became an Aunt for the first time. Last night Danny's sister had her baby. I don't have many details but I do know it is a boy 9lb 9oz. She turned out to be further along then the doctor originally thought. Which is great for me because he is here and I'll get to see him when I go home June 5th. Good for her too, every girls dream to have a shortened due date.
OK got to run Natasha is poring her water in her yogurt. Have a great weekend everyone!! Don't eat to much barbecue ;)
I have not had much to say I feel like my days are all over the map. I can go from feeling good about the day for a few days or almost the the entire week. Then boom I have a bad day and just feel bad about myself and everything else. I don't get depressed it doesn't last that long before I feel better but when I down I guess I am down. No I'm not manic. Maybe it is the prometruim the doctor had me on. I don't know if that could do it since they were giving me what my body was missing. So I have a bad day and then I have a few good days and you know what it makes it feel as if that bad day happened weeks ago. I just feel content or right in the head if that makes sense. It is weirdo how crummy I feel those other days and then it is as if it was weeks ago. I have been busy though and I have had limited time to check blogs let alone write one.
Anyway on with other stuff. Natasha has been sick. She shared it with me and I made it through my weekend shifts sneezing blowing my nose. She couldn't o to day care so I missed my workout, bummer. The meds the doctor gave me worked and I had the TOM from hell. It was my first cycle since Feb. 7th and he wants me to do the same for the month of June.
For memorial day Danny is off from school. I told him we should meet everyone at a local park for a cook out. Stoney creek park has picnic tables volleyball net ultimate Frisbee and a beach. Well, he decided we should do it at my grandma's condo. She manages it and there is a pool and a grill. So, he sent an e-mail to all the radiology classes at he hospital even picked a time. BUT, he hasn't asked grandma if it is OK yet. It should be interesting how it turns out. I thought it was funny.
Two weeks till me and Natasha fly home!!!!:D I can not wait to take Natasha to the beach.
I'm still here. I have been very busy with work family and friends. I babysat for my friend Friday night. It was me Natasha a 6 month old and a 10 year old. It was wicked hard. Nicholas the 6 month old sure did cry a lot. At least a lot more then Natsha did. I think maybe I blocked that out. Kayla the 10 year old was a great help for a couple hours. Natasha was very jealous and made it very hard for me to get Nicholas to bed. Made me not want another one. OK that only lasted a few days ;)
I worked mothers day but it was slow and I got to sneak out. I went with Danny and Natasha to UNO's. They got me a card, candle and a new water bottle. My work partner got me cookies, a bag of ginger snaps. I couldn't help but feel sabotaged. She is more crazy about what she put her mouth then me. We compare notes on workouts. Anyway I bought her workout clothes. Oh and I munched on the cookies that night and then threw the bag out. Monday I took grandma and Aunt Michelle out to lunch. Then grandma took me and Natasha shopping. Today grandma watched Natasha for a bit while I meet up with Danny and some other X-ray students. So, just a lot of busy days but not crazy schedule busy. Natasha has been staying up till 9 so I have less time at night lately. In the mornings I have been taking my cautioning education credits for my MR license.
As for fitness stuff I over did it BIG TIME. My shins are killing me. The gym is under construction so I did more running since there are less spin classes to go to. As for food I have been doing great this week. Still doing my own thing eating healthy no free day free for all is and I don't eat by the clock which has helped me not go crazy and cave when I shouldn't.
I will be flying to Mass June 5th with Natasha for a quick visit. They should be out of rain by then ha ha, sorry guys. Oh and I have been on an oral progesterone for 6 days. I take for ten wait till June 10th and do another 10 day cycle. My doctor thinks this will fix me. If not he has plan B anther drug he wants me to take. Will see how this works out. So, you see a lot of nothing going on. I have been busy to the point that I haven't got a chance to read many blogs. I am trying to play catch up.
2.I'm a cancer I fit the description very well. Funny thing my mom and brother are Gemini but I have a twin:)
3.I lived in Michigan for 10 years in Massachusetts for 13 before moving back to Michigan with my husband. That was 3 years ago, it feels like yesterday.
4.I defend everyone even total strangers. I give the benefit of doubt much more then I should.
5.I have always worked since the age of 16. I have had 4 jobs 1)KFC 2)Certified nurses aid 3)Home health aid 4)MRI Technologist..I love my job
6.I am close to my mom. My mother walked me down the isle. She went through hell trying to protect us from a rough childhood.
7.I can honestly say my father doesn't know me. He wasn't home much when I was young and well see #3. He once threatened the life of me my sister and brother by knife point. I have been in MI 3 years and still only see him on holidays. He is lucky to have held Natasha or exchange hugs with my family.
8.I am a peace keeper. I gave my father a speaking part in the wedding in attempt to smooth things out.
9.I have an identical twin 26, but she is prettier then me. I have a brother 27 and 3 step sisters 17, 15, and 12.
10.I bungie jumped once..it was a blast.
11.I have a history of depression. I once overdosed on night time pain meds and wondered if I would wake up in the morning. I woke up. Four years later I hit all time low. I battled anorexia at 5'9" my lowest weigh in was 115. In the world of ED I was a late bloomer.
12.I believe in God I am spiritual. I do not believe I need organized religion.
13.I love to dance. My husband likes to dance too. I never took a dance class because we couldn't afford it.
14.My favorite music is techno/psychotrans. It is fun to dance to.
15.I am shy and often don't know what to say. I am very aware of this and have come a long way. If I have to I fake it and put myself out there.
16.I am a great friend and was always the girl my friends went to when the shit hit the fan. If I say I am going to call I do. Almost all my current friends I meet in high school. Except my best bud we meet in 4th grade.
17.My husband brings out the best in me. He has taught me many things about me and showed me how to be me. I could have easily been sucked in by a controlling man.
18.My daughter has taught me many things she is more special then I could ever imagine. Being a mother is the most diffcult, demanding, amazingly wonderful experiance I have ever had.
19.I consider being called a girlie girl an insult.
20. I love vacations to tropical places. I love walking the beach and swimming. You just can't beat a resort with a swim up bar!
21.I collect bathing suits and have more then I can count off the top of my head. I have a small collection of beach rocks that Danny brought me from times he was on the beach without me.
22.In high school I was in the color guard and winter guard. I flipped flags and rifles with my sister and two cousins. In the spring me and my sister ran track, we were not very good and the couch hardly talked to us.
23.I hardly drink maybe once a month or every few months. When I do drink I never waste a buzz butt never get out of control. I smoked on and off from age 17-23. I still like a smoke while having a drink. I tried pot when I was 16 and have tried it on and off. I never buy it if I do it I must be home and in for the night. I hate to feel out of control and after I smoke I wish I hadn't. I have never tried any other drug and never ever would.
24.I don't believe in fate or jinx. Everything that happens in the world is due to a decision or action that somebody has made.
25.I stooped eating meat when I was12 years old. My mom made me eat poultry due to her seafood allergy. I have have never looked back, if it does not swim or fly I wont eat it. My sister has been converted and enjoys hamburgers on a weekly bases.
This was hard to get started but in the end I could have gone on and on. I think it took at least 2 hours. So, now you know me a little more.
with my doctor. I called again Thursday and he wasn't in the office. The receptionist told me I needed to call back Friday and go on the call back list. I did call and again no call back. This is taking forever, my tests were in March and even then I had to call and get my own test results. I am going to call one more time. If I wasn't in the middle of this I would just get a new doctor.
I decided to forgo the hell diet. I had said before I wanted to get myself into a healthy eating without a set diet. I am going to stick to that because I am doing pretty good. The point of that was to be able to have something unauthorized and not have that turn into a free day. I found myself eating worse then I did before BFL for a few days a week because I would scrap the day and then it would be free day. If I didn't do that I would ruin everything in a day with a big binge. I tend to push my restriction limits and then I tare through the kitchen. Now that I feel comfortable with my food I have been focusing on my exercises. Last week I got some good workouts in. It had been a good 2 weeks since I had a good work out. I have been doing good with the running. I made it 25.5 miles this past week. Which is another reason for me to skip the hell diet. I don't think I could go that far on a restricted diet. It sure does add a lot of resistance to push the running stroller. Add to that a flat tire and then my wheel started to wobble on the axel. My last run took me 65 min to go 5 and half miles. I called the costumer care line and the new wheel will be here Wednesday. My shins are a little tender, so today I have to rest. Which is a big bummer because my gym is closed.
This is all I have time for, for now. I have lots of errands to do with it being the first day home after my weekend shifts. I have another order for cup cakes. My friends daughter is turning 5 and I am making cup cakes that look like ice cream cones for the party.
Edit/update I only ran 20.5 not 25. I called the doctor. They can not take a message on days he is not in the office. The receptionist does not know what happen Tuesday. She said he got called to the hospital on Friday. I call Tuesday if I don't get a call I will get a new doctor.
Well, I had called my OB/GYN and the receptionist put me on his call back list. He must have had to go to the hospital because he never called. Hopefully he calls today. Thanks everyone for your sweet comments.
Karenna, yes the do it for Christmas and go all out. I hear it is quite a site.
Melissa, your running schedule is awesome. You will do just fine in your 20K and if I ran as often as you do I would sigh up to do it too. When I did the Detroit half marathon I was only up to 7 miles every other day. The four weeks before I was told by my PT to increase a mile on my run for the next for weeks. I went up each week 4, 5, 6, and 7. I doubted my ability to cross the finish line standing. The race atmosphere and adrenaline will have you flying. I think you will be surprised what you can do on race day. Are your running times what you did with a jogger in toe?
My physical went great. The office staff were all super nice. I never waited they got right in to the exam room. The nurse did an EKG, eye exam and blood pressure. Then no wait and the doctor was in. They checked me over for everything. The doctor talked to me the entire time. He told what he was thinking as we went through each test. My vision is 20/20, perfect. He said I had good reflexes. Awesome blood pressure, normal thyroid levels(that is the one my mom had me stressing over).Dr.D said if my thyroid was off it would raise my cholesterol and it wouldn't come down till the thyroid was fixed, but that is great too. my HDL and LDL ratio(good and bad) is 2.1 they just want to see you below 4. My kidney levels also normal which he said also made some hormones normal. He wanted to know how often I exercise and what I did for workouts. He then said he should make a video of me for all his other patients to see the benefits of exercise. He said he can't believe how far I run. He also said I workout more then an other patients in his practice. That is pretty cool. I know I don't work out as much as some off you I usually get in 5 sessions and it has been along time since I did two work outs in the same day. Anyhow I am in excellent shape according to my doctor. The only thing he was going to say was my heart rate was low during my EKG, 52 beats a min. I believe. He decided it was normal for me because of my running. So, nothing going on here that would stop my cycle. I was waiting to fallow up with the OB/GYN since I knew he was going to put me on progesteroin and I didn't want to be on anything during my blood work up. Dr.D did say none of the test we did would show if I had a problem with these particular hormone levels. So, I put the call in today for my other doctor to do my fallow up. I am on his call list and should know what he wants to do next by tonight. I was disappointed that I had to call. I haven't herd from the office since my other blood test and ultrasound, which I called in to get my own results with no fallow up call. So, that is all I know for now.
Ok onto funnier stuff. I got a jogger stroller yesterday at Sams club. It only cost $98 and hold a kid up to 5 years of age. Me and Natasha put it together yesterday. I have had a hard time getting my runs in with Danny gone all day. I did get out last night and ran over 5 miles in 41 minutes, which is good considering how inconsistent I have been. I am going to do a 10K on the forth of July. There is a 5K and a 20K too, but 5K is kind of short to me know and I am afraid to push it with the 20K since I don't know how the shins will be. The race is 1 1/2 hours from here, but the place that is hosting it has lots of other stuff going on too. We are just going to make it a family thing. We are going up the night before and were going to stay at a German in and their will be fireworks the night before. For those of you here in MI the race is at Frankenmuth and we are getting a room at the Bavarian Inn.
I live in MI with my husband and our two year old daughter. We have been living here for 3 years after moving from Plymouth MA. I consider myself down to earth easy going and a can be shy. I love running and danceing. I miss the beaches in MA and love hanging at the beach.
