Hey babycakes...

He is 5 months old and already trying to make his move. What a guy.

Dear fitness buddies

I need some advice. It is the end of a challenge here and I don't know what to do next. I have been still working out and eating "on plan". I just don't know if I should sign up to do another challenge. Me and Danny are trying to get pregnant. I went off the pill in January. I am looking to stay fit and strong. I intend to keep up with my workouts as much as possible while pregnant. I know I will back off, I do remember the overwhelming tiredness the first trimester brings. I herd you shouldn't cut fat while trying to get pregnant. I thought I should just aim to maintain. I sure could lose some of this gigantic leg muscle. LOL no really my legs feel huge. Maybe I should give myself a challenge that involved my diet and exercise and not BF% and pictures. So, hoping for some advice on how I should go about a challenge or not. I want any and all opinions because I'm not sure what the best plan is. I know lots of athletes get pregnant and not sure if they just keep up there routine. Hmm what to do?

Hi

Hi! I have been working a few extra shifts. Danny left at 6:00am this morning for Massachusetts. He is on brake from school. I have been busy and have not had time to post. I don't have Danny here to take 12 week pictures. I think this is probably a good thing. Just wanted to say HI. I'm going to catch up on blogs and run to the gym for a total conditioning class. Natasha is done with breakfast got to go.

T.G.I.M

Sorry it took me so long to update. I worked all weekend and then did an extra shift this Monday. I had my ultrasound Friday and it didn't show anything. I guess this is a good thing. Whatever fluid was there the week before must have cleared up. The hard part for me was that I felt pregnant. This feeling peeked last weekend and then my symptoms slowly backed off. I didn't feel totally back to normal till this Saturday. Since I was feeling that way when it came time for my ultrasound I prepared my self for two things. One being I had an ectopic pregnancy and would have to take care of that. I knew it was early and the doctor would give me medication allowing my body to take care of it. Two, that I was pregnant and all was good, just wasn't pregnant enough when I tool the at home test. I wasn't ready for all is normal maybe your doctor will give you something to get your cycle going. My ultrasound tech sucked. She only works Fridays. Good to know I wont be going there on Fridays EVER. She made me get changed. Nothing from the waste down for transvaginal ultrasound, but she didn't leave the room like the other girl does. She made me uncomfortable. I wont know the true outcome of my test till Tuesday or Thursday. My doctor is going to call when he has my blood test and ultrasound report. The blood test was for hCG levels, at this point the only information that will give is weather there was ever a pregnancy at some point. It was an emotional week to say the least. It was really difficult to wait all week to get the ultrasound done. It was starting to wear on Danny too. We did mange to get out Wednesday night. He had a fund raiser to go to for school to support the senior class. His school is near my grandma's, so she watched Natasha while we went to dinner. The seniors were cooking at a local restaurant and all the tips went toward there graduation costs. It was all good till we headed back to grandma's. Danny could tell I was extra quit and wanted to know what was wrong. Sometimes it easier to keep your thoughts in your head, because once you say what is on your mind you lose it. At least that's how it is for me. So, anyway he asked and I start crying before I can even answer him. Poor guy didn't even see it coming. I was missing Chad and the fund raiser was held at Chad's favorite restaurant. All week I was wishing the week could just end. I usually try to enjoy the moment for what it is, but I wished this week away. It couldn't have ended quick enough.
O.K I'm off to bed to try to get some sleep. This week will be better and full of PMA. :D

My grandma is the best!

My grandma bought me a new cake book. It is by Wiltons and give instructions on cake decorating. I just had to play with some frosting to see what I could do. I bake cakes for all kinds of stuff, but I only make the inside good. I can make any flavor and then I frost it and it doesn't look as good as it taste. I'm working on this, that way I can make them pretty and maybe sell some. My girlfriend wants me to do her wedding cake in July. I told I wasn't going there yet, but weddings are where the money is. I baked up a cake and whipped up some butter cream for frosting. I decided I should make the cake for grandma. We al missed her birthday. We were supposed to celebrate when she returned from her cruise. Well, she returned the day before Chad died and the celebration was canceled. She turned 70, going on 50 I swear hope I age just like her. I didn't make a big enough batch of icing for the double layer cake I made. Instead of making another batch I decided to use the strawberry cream cheese frosting I had left over. My grandma loves strawberries, thought it would be like chocolate covered strawberry in reverse. I frosted the middle and top with the strawberry. Then I realized how hard it would be to frost the sides. If you ever frosted a cake you know the sides done by sliding frosting from the top down the side. I almost totaled the cake trying to get the sides. The frosting isn't as thick on the side as it should be and you can see some of the cake. So, that part didn't turn out the way I would have liked. I was glad however to make the side look somewhat normal. Then I had fun playing with tips. I am taking the cake to grandma today. This way she gets birthday cake a big thank you for the book and she wont feel like she is celebrating. She is having nightmares since Chad died and me and Natasha like to go keep her busy. So, here it is my first decorated cake thanks to grandma.

update

Well, I had my appointment today. I feel better now that I got to talk to my doctor. He did a pelvic exam and could tell I was tender on the left side. I sent me for blood work to check my levels. I have an ultrasound on Friday to check if anything is going on. He seemed to think it would all turn up negative. He is going to talk to me Friday if all is negative he is going to put me on something to start a cycle. I'm wondering if he should monitor my hormone levels. Before I got pregnant with Natasha I went months without a cycle and had to be put on meds. Then after she was born I got 2 periods every month even on birth control. Anyway just wanted to give an update. I'm bummed I have to wait till Friday.

Can I have a brake

Just thought I would give an update. I don't have good news. I still feel pregnant. I also have some discomfort across my lower abdomen. My hcg levels are still low. I feel wired and just off. I see Dr.White tomorrow and he is going to check to see if I have an ectopic pregnancy. This could be the reason I feel pregnant and have some pain. Ectopic pregnancy doesn't produce enough hormones to test positive. Well, guess that wasn't much of an update since I am playing the waiting game. My appointment is at 3pm, I'll let you know how it goes. Cross your fingers for me. I promise someday I will have some good news to share. I'm just full of bad news lately.

Psycho or um Psycho yeah

I'm a psycho and I'm going to share my psychoness with ya. For starters I went off the pill the last week in December. Since then my cycle finely regulated and was every 22 days. Now I know that it has only been 2-3 months, but I was so screwed up that I figure that I must now be regulated. I could be way off here since I have only had 2 full cycles off the pill. Do you think I'm being psychotic yet, LOL. Anyway I figure since I got IT on Jan 15th and Feb. 7th, IT is coming at any time. So, Sunday the 5th I was thinking my breast felt sensitive not all the time and not to intense. Lori(my twin) then calls throwing up. "Mari I'm sick is it because you are pregnant"(she can be psycho too). She does this to me once in a while and sometimes she is right on. By the time 5 o'clock rolls around I am convinced I know this feeling. My partner Linda sends me to Rite Aid. I end up taking a pregnancy test in the back of the MRI truck. I was shocked it wasn't positive. I felt silly for taking it. Then Wednesday night Danny was wondering if I got IT yet. Well, no I didn't and he thought I should take a test. I had the thought in the back of my head, but I took one Sunday. I told him I wasn't and that I felt psycho for taking the first one. So, Thursday morning I took another and I thought it would be positive. I still have a sensitive feeling but it is very slight and nothing like that full blown tender breast feeling. I'm not sick or anything and I know how I felt with Natasha. So, I am becoming a pro at pissing on the test stick. I figure I am either a psycho girl or a psycho pregnant girl. If you have stock you might want to move it to the home pregnancy stocks, they are spiking. Me and Lori are getting a good laugh at my expense, so thought I would share.

I met Nancy!!!!

I just got back from meeting Nancy. We went to a cardio kick boxing class together at our local gym. This is the same gym she will be starting her fitness instructing at, in April. How cool is that. Nancy is wicked nice with a big friendly smile. I rounded the corner at the gym to bring Natasha to day care and almost walked right into her. She wore her inspired for life tank top just in case I couldn't find her. It was my first time at the kick boxing class, thank goodness Billy Blanks prepared me for this. Nancy could defiantly knock me out lol. It was a fun class. After class we got our kids and chit chatted over protein shakes in the Life Cafe. Her son Anthony is a sweetie, a little shy with big gorgeous eyes like his mommy. It was really awesome to meet Nancy, sorry neither one of us brought a camera. We will do that next time, we are going to try our first yoga class together. This was the first blend I have meet and it was like we were old friends. I was a little nervous on my way there, I can be quite shy. We talked the entire time never had to find something to say or endure any long awkward silence. So, Nancy is just as sweet in person as she is in cyber land. As we headed out the door the kids yelled bye across the parking lot, that was to cute.
Thanks Nacy me and Natasha had a good time.

A year of Changes

March 2005-March 2006!

Natasha's pictures 1 year apart.

My 8 week pictures for current challenge. This is 5am Danny got up just to help me. I think I need some oil I have more muscle then you can see.





It is my 1 year anniversary. I had some down time with shin splints and a torn neck muscle, but I have maintained my healthy ways for over a year now. I had to add the one of Natasha Danny showed this to me. Can you believe that was her a year ago. Time just flew by and with Natasha around it seems to move a little faster.
Cherish every moment and never let life pass you by!