Good-bye 2005

It has been a busy year. It shore did fly by. I got a lot accomplished this year. I switched jobs in Febuary. It turned out I made the right choice because the site I left is not doing well. The shift I worked was eliminated this December. I started my BFL in March and ended in May. May 3rd I ran my first race a 5K(3.1miles). It was record cold and a hilly windy coarse and in spite of that I was first for my age group. The race it self took me 23 min and 56 sec. My second race was by far my best. It was a perfect morning and it was a warm day. June 4th I ran a 10K(6.2miles) in 46min. 22sec. placed 7th overall, first for my age group and lost first place for overall women by a sprint to the finish, she beat me by 12 sec. If only I knew I was in first the entire way, oh well next time. On July 1st I ran my first cross-country trail and was happy with my time. I was battling shin splints at the time and did the 3 mile run in 22 min. 33sec. I was the captain of a 4 week challenge on tracker in July and suffered a neck injury right before the final week. The first week in October Danny got accepted to X-ray school, thank goodness. On October 23rd I ran the Detroit 1/2 marathon in 1 hour 48min. and 48sec., it was a blast. I learned a lot this year. I believe anything is possible if we take the time to plan and train. I know how to push myself to new limits. Hell I pushed myself into a tron neck muscle and shin splints. Natasha taught me plenty this year and watching her grow up is one of the happiest aspects of my year. I also learned you never stop falling in love. I have always felt that my love for Danny grows over time. Just when I think there is no way to love a person more then this, I fall in love with him a little more. Love is a wonderful thing it has an infinite capacity.

What is to come for 2006....

Happy New Year!!!!!!!!!!!

I have the worst headache of my life. I am going to go to bed in hopes that it is gone when I wake up. Goodnight.

locker talk

I am totally amazed by the girls locker room. It is chalk full of girls of all ages and sizes. It amazes me how easily they prance around. Some do this naked, some in their thongs, others in white hanes her ways. They strap on a bra and stand at the mirror. They blow dry foundation and maybe some mascara. Then they dress on there way out the door. They slip into there clothes like I slip on my shoes. I am in total awe at how comfortable these girls must be in there own skin to drop everything in what I consider to be a not so private place. I wonder if this is part of your personality or does it come with time. Will there be a day that I do not run for the changing stall? I am also good at the get changed under the little white towel. OK tiny towel if it gets any shorter my butt will be hanging out and I will need two just to make it to the stall. I find it empowering that there are women out there that comfortable in there skin. So, if you can drop your stuff in the locker room and do your thing I applaud you. Will I join you no, I can't. I just can't. Just my thought.

Christmas fun...

Hope everyone had a Merry Christmas. We had fun and Natasha did great ripping open her gifts this morning. We kept it all low key and only went out for one stop at grandma's. She has open house breakfast or brunch I guess. It is the grand kids job to cook it all up. We got there at 11:30 and were the first grand kids to arrive. The youngest grand kid is 15 and I am sure this tradition will be later and later every year.

Christmas is just about over now. Are we ready for January? I am ready to go with this challenge right now. I have enough motivation to get us all through 12 weeks in a flash. I would start right now if it did not mean jumping ahead of my support crew. I am counting down the days 8 more to go. I was bitching about taking my before picture and was wondering if I look worse now then when I started my other challenge in March. Danny said I definitely look like I am in better shape. I hope so guess I will have to do the pictures to find out. I broke out of my rut and I am sure it is what has gotten me so motivated. I finely got my butt to the gym for more then one day in a row. I have worked out for 6 day in a row, woowho. Yup, I went to day and did a double workout of legs, bicep and back. I went on Christmas eve too, got up at 3:45am to get there before work. I went before work Friday also, but only had to get up at 6:45am. Hope my motivation holds up. I got a new note book to keep track of my goals and workouts. Jess tells me to write my plan and post it to keep me committed, so I am getting that done. My shin pain is back which really upset me. I took 6 weeks off the road after the marathon because it my have turned to stress fracture. The only thing you can do for that is take 6 weeks off. Well, I took 7 and it did not help. I ran 3 times for 3 miles with a rest day in between and the pain is already back. Dr.James my have been right when he said it was the veins circulation. It is such a bummer and I do not know why it hurts I mean 7 weeks off. I have to call my doctor but I do not know if she can figure it out. On the medical up side my birth control pill regulated me this week which means if all goes well next week NO D.N.C :) Of course it also means in 2 days I will be a tired bummed out crampy bitch, so consider yourself warned.
Merry Christmas everyone!

Wishing you a...

Seven

Sevens
Seven Things To Do Before I Die
1. Travel outside the country
2. Run my own MRI center
3. Run a marathon
4. Learn to cycle
5. Become a strong swimmer
6. Do a triathalon
7. Ride a hot air balloon

Seven Things I Cannot Do
1. A cartwheel
2. Spell
3. I can not crack my knuckles
4. Rollerblading, I have roller sneakers
5. Carry a tune
6. Go anywhere without getting lost
7. Fly a plane

Seven Things That I Admire in Others
1. Humor
2. Compassion
3. Honesty
4. Determination
5. Outgoing people(someone willing to put them selves out there)
6. Positive outlook
7. Healthy life style

Seven Things I Say Most Often
1. Im sorry
2. Like
3. I love you
4. What do you say
5. Shit
6. Excuse me
7. Im cold

Seven Books I Love
1. Da Vinci code
2. Jackdaws
3. Life Expectancy
4. Mirror Image
5. Interview with a Vampire
6. Fear Nothing
7. Seize the Night

Seven Movies I Have Watched Over and Over Again
1. The Rock
2. Shawshank Redemption
3. Mulan
4. Behind Enemy Lines
5. The Crow
6. The Family Man
7. Bad Boys

Seven People I Want to Join in Too
1. I
2. Think
3. I
4. am
5. the
6. last
7. one

Friends

I had no idea a bunch of people I have never meet could so profoundly impact my life. I feel like there are people who care about how I am doing. I feel like I have support when I am having a tough time. I am always amazed at what awesome people are out there when I read there blogs. Sometimes I do not have time to post, but sometimes I just do not know what to say. I am in awe at how open and true all the post can be. I am blessed to share the most intimate parts of your life with you. I love it and it is probably what pulls us so close. Who else in your life knows...what you ate for breakfast...that it is that time of the month..that you are nervous about an interview..and who else knows how you style you hair down their. If you are reading this thank you. You all make me smile, laugh, cry I am happy when I read you are doing great and I get a little down for you when you are having a bad day. I can only hope that I can make someone's day with my happy life moments typed out in cyber space for all to analyze. I know that we are all affected by Julies passing. It is inconceivable to think how many people's lives were touched by Julie. Julie may your body be at peace may your soul be free and may your legacy live on forever.

Wow the week is ending all ready. I feel like I have not gotten a chance to catch up on all the blogs. It is hard to post lately because if I sit at the computer Natasha is all over it and I can not get much done. Maybe she will be a computer wiz like her Dad. Last night I hosted my second cookie swap at my apartment. It was fun and it went great. My family back in MA has one every year, so me and my sister started a MI tradition last holiday season. I have been helping my sister finish stuff up around here. She is going back to MA on Monday, and she even has an apartment waiting for her. I know it wont be the same here without her, but hoping she finds the job she is looking for. I know my mom could use her company this Christmas. I worked a 16 hour shift today to cover for someone, and it is going to feel like a real long weekend when it comes time to do my other two shifts this weekend. Danny had his first week at school. They do orientation for the hospital and school, then he is off till class Jan. 3rd. OK did I put you to sleep. Lori had me do pilates with her this week and I don't think it is my thing. My lower back has been achey and tired since I did it. Maybe I did it wrong anyway as for nutrition...did I mention I had a cookie swap....mmm cookie.

You Have a Melancholic Temperament

Introspective and reflective, you think about everything and anything.You are a soft-hearted daydreamer. You long for your ideal life.You love silence and solitude. Everyday life is usually too chaotic for you. Given enough time alone, it's easy for you to find inner peace.You tend to be spiritual, having found your own meaning of life.Wise and patient, you can help people through difficult times. At your worst, you brood and sulk. Your negative thoughts can trap you.You are reserved and withdrawn. This makes it hard to connect to others.You tend to over think small things, making decisions difficult.

What Temperment Are You?

:)

Well, another long weekend done. I have been doing good, not BFL but healthy. I feel good, went to a work Christmas party Thursday night. It was fun and me and Danny won some gift cards. My weight is now 128, good for me but pants still a little tight I am about to blame the dryer. Danny starts orientation for school tomorrow and I am hoping his new schedule will have me at the gym more often. My work is changing also, I will be working closer to home. Yes no more hour drive at 4:00am. I know I am going back and forth on my subject matter here, so I am going to get myself to bed. Good night :)

Not much going on

Well just got over a major case of the head aches. I do not know what is up, never got them this much before. Yesterday morning it even made me want to throw-up. My eyes hurt and my forehead was splitting. Today was not as bad and is now gone. Thank goodness. I basically have been hanging in feeling sick. When I felt better I made it out to the grocery store and found a top to wear to my work Christmas party. Not much else going on around here. Funny story...Natasha says excuse me when she farts it is so cute, I taught her that. Well today I farted and she said excuse me, LOL how cute is that. OK so maybe it would only be funny to me. :)

OK I am off got to go watch the Victoria Secret runway show.

checking in

Just wanted to check in real quick. The head ache finally ended at 9:00am. I got up with Natasha this morning, so Danny could sleep in. He still has that darn cough. I had to run to work for a meeting and Danny meet me there so he could work and I could have Natasha. I thought I would be dragging all day after working and getting up early, but somehow found some energy. Natasha was in a great mood too, she kept me laughing all day. Today was my off night, I did BFL meals for the first half of the day. I did good with food this week and bad at the workouts. I lost 3lb and still have not checked my body fat. OK off to pack food for my two 16 hour weekend shifts. Take care.

Thursday

I had a horrible night last night. I ended up crying myself to sleep. I got in a fight with Danny and I just wanted to be by myself. I also got a Happy Thanksgiving card from my brother Wayne. It just brought me way down, almost stressed me out. Wayne does not know our Uncle Lev was murdered. I have to find away to tell him in a letter, and well that just makes me feel down. Wayne is in prison about 8 hours from here, so I have to tell him by mail. I also have to tell him that his partner in crime and exgirlfriend, had a baby and is getting married. When they originally went to prison they promised to wait for each other, but she has been out for over two years. I can not even imagine how all this will make him feel. I do not write often and feel even worse that when I do it is all bad news. Last letter I got from him he wrote to ask for money. He only writes a few times a year. He said it is hard to write when everyday plays out the same way. I do not think stressed is the right word to describe how I feel. It is like there is a heavy feeling on my body. I do not know but I have to write him. On top of all this I have the worse cramps I have ever had. I am on another 3 month round birth control and this brand totally sucks. I have a head ache from driving home squinting at my windshield to avoid all the spin outs on the highway. It did not help that I had been at work since 5:30am and my eyes had that sting you get after a good night of crying. The puffy under eye look faded by 11am, thank goodness. OK enough depressing stuff I am off to bed with a heating pad and some Aleve.
Oh here is some health crap for you. I did eat clean all day but did not eat as often as I should.